not much to say...
Sunday, November 22, 2009 // back to top
Mhmm... i've been playing games recently...
Started playing ms again... =.=" yepp, im sad xD
had to start a new account coz my old account got hacked T.T
Ah well, i only play to entertain Angelina anyway...
Planning on changing my skin again...
i'm kinda sick of staring at it.... white =.=
I like it but just... getting plain now.
Oral tomorroww ! So excited, yet nervous >.<
I'm the anchorman and interviewer.... -nervous-
xD wish me luck tomorrow !!
not so good...
Thursday, November 12, 2009 // back to top
Sigh... not doing so well lately...
My parents condition is getting worse and worse...
Dad yelled at me yesterday... but i understand.
He bears something painful... but of course,
neither my Mum or Dad will tell me. I'm not part of it.
I forgive my Dad for yelling at me because i know,
this is not the right time to be mad at my Dad.
I dont wanna type out what happened since its... personal.
But i just know, my household is changing... quickly.
The atmosphere is very... unsettling... and sad.
You know, my Mum asked this question about 2 days ago
"If me & your dad were to divorce, who would you go with?"
At that time i thought, omg? is this for real?
I didn't believe in it but i gave an answer anyway...
There are good points about my Mum & Dad...
but overall, i would go with my Mum...
When my Mum asked that, i felt like i wanted to cry.
i never cried or believed in it... positive thoughts.
I just hope we will never go that path... hope.
Mainly negatives today... not many good...
Oh yeah, and what you said on the phone, Nadin
That me & Hong's life is much harder than yours
thats not entirely true... im sure your life is hard at times.
But just for now, its worse.
After schools now, im focusing on going out for walks.
If you're free, come join me ! We can lie on the grass in Prendwick.
Stare at the sky.... filled with dull clouds.
Even my Mum told me to go out for walks... which was unusual.
Maybe i should accept her advice?
I shall pray for a miracle to happen....
Something that will cure the war in my house right now...
I hope something will drive these tears away soon...
And i hope something will cheer me up =D
(I know this is random but its what im thinking...)Good Night.
Free happiness...
Tuesday, November 10, 2009 // back to top
Updates !New playlist !
New songs !
New title !
More desires !
Mhmmm.... exceptionally happy day.... =D
No particular reason.....
Felt no pain, no sadness, no worries, nothing.
Yup, this is who i want to be. F-R-E-E !
It feels like im on a fresh start ^^
Just read 'A Kiss for my Prince' but its on-going.
SO GOOD >.< can't stop reading it.
i can probably guess what the ending is going to be like.
Argh, i keep thinking about next year >/////<
All the little Year 8s !! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA !!
I get to bully them ! Hehehe.... more asians ! C'mon !
Yes... before that, needa get a makeover once more !
(edited)
For those who can't be bothered reading my title,
I will tell you:
Next time when you open your eyes
The world might have already changed
So i will close my eyes for a bit longer
And dream of you&me, together (:
When i wake up, you will be beside me
And i'll know we haven't changed (:
I thought it didnt make sense at first... but yeahh...
It made sense to me, that is all i need =D
I know its not the right time, but im signing off.
Earlier you sleep, earlier you rise =D
Good night.
Friday, November 6, 2009 // back to top
Mmmmm.... atmosphere is slowly changing. From bad to good.
My Dad is more.... talkative now. i think he thought over it.
about what he did to make Mum angry + unhappy...
He was in the theatre room nearly everyday.
I always got worried thinking, "When will they be able to talk again?"
In the end, something worse happened.
My Grandma, got sent to the hospital.
I was.... shocked. and speechless. my mind was blank.
I thought, "Grandma? To the hospital?... no way."
Bonnie told me she got breathing problems....
At that time... i wanted to cry. like its all over or something.
I held it in until i went to bed.
Let it all out.
I was really worried about Grandma... a lot that i started to cry.
I pulled through it... but i guess it had after affects. at school.
I wasn't exactly in my full mood at school. i was more... unhappy.
I couldn't help it but feel that way. some people noticed it.
Rachel noticed it. she told me i was looking at the ground a lot.
which i dont really dont often look at....
But now, Grandma is back and i guess, healed?
I dont know... but i look out for her more then usual now.