Hihi :D
says the pink bunny
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Do not continue any further if you think this mistress is not awesome.
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009 // back to top
Mhmmm... wedding was alright. no skirt for me =D
Went on for a long time... until around 11, we left.
got home around 11:30-ish. tired.
When i layed down on my bed, not even 5min, fell asleep.
*Sigh* i still dazed about what happened between me & blob...
He called me yesterday night... so today i was dead tired.
I was soooo happy that he called me =D
but my outter character took over me... so i acted like i didnt care =.=
Sometimes i hate myself... so much.
I told him im going to HK in Jan, he was really happy.
I promised i would meet up with him >/////<
He got really excited and started to plan what to do...
I went along with the mood and eventually... acted like myself =)
He wants to go get a haircut with me... but im getting one with my sis's.
Soo... he's coming with me & my sis's !! >///////<
HEHEHEHEHE, IMMA GET HIM TO GET AZN HAIRSTYLE ~~~
Wahh.... -drools- LMFAO !!
I seem like a pervert LOL.. nahh.
Sometimes i think he is too good for me.... since he had 5 gf's =.=
He's got the looks, hair, voice and SMILEEEEEEE ~~~
RAWR, im exaggerating too much >.<
When he had to hang up last night.... i was so happy =D
More happy than usual.... hehehehe =P
(he said i love you >/////<)
Nadinnnn ! We should go shopping or something !
I really want to go out.... a buy stuff =P
i really wish we could go to the city... but we cant T_T
I can try to convince my Mum... but its most likely a no.
Sooooo.... LETS PLANNNNN ~~~~
I can't be bothered typing up anything else... sooo,
Bye byee ~~
Friday, October 23, 2009 // back to top
A hot day today T.T i had sport too !!
but, SPORT WAS AWESOMEEEEE ~~
i like softball >=) especially batting. I GOT TO WALK IT !!
because the pitcher threw bad throws, so i got to walk to first base.
HAPPYYYYY ~~ and our team won anyway.
Before that, me + Sue + Yu ting were singing Nobody song while changing.
XDD !! i got that song stuck in Emily's head >=D
Ah yes.... played handball for a short while...
I might play again? idk....
AND YAYYY !! WEEKENDSSS !! ~~~ i can sleep in nowwww.
but i got northshore on Sunday =.="
As usual, he called me last night as promiseddd.
Shocking really... never knew he was that pathetic/stupid.
I always knew he was a brave person... but on the inside..
he was a weak guy =.= because of his weakness, we argued.
Well, here's what happened :
Started off with him apologizing to me for making me cry. i knew it =.=
He said he will tell me everything, and he meant it.
He asked J to help him... and J did. i dont know what happened but yeahh.
He said they talked together, and the result was this. telling me everything.
He said..... he liked me. for a long time. I was speechless.
He thought that we couldn't be together because we're in different places.
He asked J for help.... J couldnt help but instead said..
"Why dont you try forgetting about (my name) by getting a gf?"
(sorry if i use 'he' for every single sentence i start with >.<)
He couldnt help it... but listen to J's advice (since J is the 'wise' one)
Then he told me, most of the time, the girls confessed to him, not him.
Only one time he confessed and that was his recent gf.
He said he liked her... liked her a lot. thought it was his ticket out of this.
but she left him because she couldnt forget about her ex. (apparently)
And they broke up like that. blob got all depressed... went to J for help.
He told me that J got all pissed and started yelling at blob.
And they started arguing etcetc.
and thats when J accidentally yelled out i liked him =.="
Blob heard and J ended up telling blob everything.... thats how he knew.
He didnt believe it... so he wanted to confirm it from my mouth.
And yeahh.... Nadinnn ~ u shud know the rest.
Blob said he was very shocked but at the same time, happy.
And i got a bit emotional and cried,
"Why didnt you tell me earlier?! Then we didnt have to argue..."
He said i'm the only one he didnt want to tell... because im 'special'
when he said that, I WAS REALLY HAPPY >////<
Happy when im crying? LOL WTF. embarrassed.
He continued by calling him a weak bastard etc.
Then the final question came.
"Do you still want to be with me? a bastard like me"
Again, SHOCKED, because i thought this would never happen =.=
I........ couldn't accept it. nor could i refuse.
After this, im sure we both would like to have time out.
So i said, "Just being good friends is enough for now. For now, i just want to work my way up the stairs and hope that one day when we see each other, we'll be together."
Now that i look back on it, IM SO EMBARRASSED !! >/////<
I CANT BELIEVE I SAID THAT !!! RAWRRRR >.<
But his answer was just as good, "Alright, i'll be waiting."
AWWWWWW ~~ so romantic XD. it really is like a manga o.o
But im glad.... everything worked out fine, and no more secrets.
For now, i just want to be very good friends =D
Dating for me? nah, i prefer friends.... for now that is >=)
docomo !~
Thursday, October 22, 2009 // back to top
Last night, busy scrolling through eBay for DOCOMO PHONES !!
Ahhh, docomo phones are sooo nice T.T
Don't know what docomo is? Google it. xD
It's a japanese phone brand. you shud check it out >.<
This is the one i want !! Either red or white =D*sigh* kinda boring today... tempted to play handball...
In the end, like usual, didnt play..
Didnt do SOSE homework... i thought i would get scolded =.="
but i didnt. the teacher said it wouldn't affect your grades. YAHOOOO ~
HAPPYYYYY !!! This is my first time soooo.... HAPPYYYY ~
Hmm... ahh yeah... last night he called me.... before i went to sleep =.=
Kinda awkward at first since i was pissed at him.
He talked about my feelings.... he called himself a bastard... i agreed xD
Then started an argument about him lying...
He said he didnt want to tell me about them, i asked why.
He made a load of bullshit about it and i didnt trust him.
if he didnt want to tell me about them, then why would he tell me about his last gf?
I asked him that, he didnt answer. Silence.
He asked me who told me that. i lied to him.
J took the initiative to tell me, i dont want him hurt by blob.
Blob knew i was lying obviously... he just kept demanding who told me...
And the argument continued.... until we were out of breath.
I ended up crying on the phone... not loudly... but you could hear me sniff.
He said, 'I'm sorry. i'll call you tomorrow. Good night"
I think he realized i was crying... thats why he hung up.
I.... I dont think im up for it... confronting him that is.
Our long term friendship might break like this... i dont want that.
What should i do? Confront or break apart?
Talked to J just then.... i felt that he & blob is still hiding something from me.
Maybe it's a secret between them? if it is, i wont interfere.
but if it about me as well... i think i have the right to know.
During our convo, i thought i heard blob's voice. maybe it was my imagination.
I'm still worrying if blob was there or not.... arghhh! >.<
J said something very interesting.... :
"He.... has a good reason why he's doing this."
I still wonder about what his 'good reason' is.... =.=
I musnt worry too much.... since i might hear it out of his mouth tonight.
Mmm.... i'll tell you next time about what will happen.
123rd post!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 // back to top
Mmhmmm... normal-usual-school day...
nothing special..... nothing particularly interesting...
I really want to get out of the house..
Why? the atmosphere has become heavy again >.<
Don't want to say anymore... about it.
Science was alright today.... made me laugh a bit =D
We had to do experiment today so we needed our safety glasses.
When the teacher walked out, some of the boys rush to her drawers.
They were looking for the spare safeties! LOL!!
It's fun to be in a childish classroom once in a while =)
Oh yeah, which reminds me... i got homework to do =.="
dont really want to do it... but got no choice T.T
Me & Bonnie were talking about the jap exchange students this year...
she said the guys were all ugly this year =.="
At that time i thought, "You already have Moomoo and you're looking at other guys?!"
But i realized, i always talk about love with Bonnie.
shes the only person that i can talk to... besides my close friends.
At times.... she is a sister that i cherish =D
Hmm.. whats the word again.... ah, irreplaceable =)
Hmm... blob will call tonight. kinda nervous.
To him, this is probably nothing.... after hearing he had 5 gf's =.=
Shocking to me... pissed me a little...
imma tell him tonight... since it's still bothering me.
Wish me luck or should i say.... victory? hehehehehe =)
New beginning...
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 // back to top
Havent posted in a while... xD
Back to this style, since i find it more.... convenient =D
Many happened, many didnt.
Lets go over it, alrightyy?
2 weeks of holidays passed, term 4 begun.
8 weeks of school left, currently on 2nd week.
Bought new school jumper, more comfortable =)
Maths teacher, Mr Kubiak, gone now. on his 'holidays'
will miss him, thanks for teaching us ! you're the best =)
English teacher, Mrs Kelly, wont be teaching us for term 4.
thanks anyway, you've been a great english teacher =P
Science teacher, Mrs Miller, gone on a solar expedition.
dont know when you're back, but come back soon !
Main teachers wont be here, kinda sad.... isnt it?
is it just me, or am i more sensitive now?... i react to things i usually dont..
is this the process of 'growing up'? if it is, this isnt what i imagined.
Ah well, its better than being clueless for lifetime =P
i've been listening to Varsity songs lately... maybe coz i like their songs?
Meaningful lyrics... and good rhythm xD
There is more to talk about, but lets do it slowly, alrightyy? =D
Oh yeah, do you remember blob? =)
J told me he was gonna call me tomorrow, so im happy =)
Ever since i told him, he hasnt called.. so i got worried.
i've always told myself, its gonna be alright. but i still worry.
i know he won't accept it, its reality after all.
Kinda sad, isnt it? a 'one-sided' love after all.
It's better that he knew about my feelings then keep it hidden.
I guess its 'Farewell, my first love'.
Gonna sleep now, have much awaiting me.