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Depressed...
Thursday, March 19, 2009 // back to top
Many things happened... mostly anger... and sadness.
recovered... but still a bit sad... i'm so glad it didn't happen.
One day, after playing dinner with Dad, went home.
a tension of anger was drifting in the air... i could feel it.
ignored it. took shower, went out for dinner with family.
Parents had a big arguement.. in the car. big big one.
why couldn't we just be happy for 1 day? 1 day !
That arguement went for the whole car ride. i wanted to cry.
held back. not the time to cry. arrived at restaurant.
Everyone got out, except for my Mum. she was crying.
i wanted to cry even more... for the first time, my Mum is crying.
she has never cried since i was born...
Dad was filled with anger... we told him to go into the restaurant first.
he refused, we ended up driving BACK HOME.
Mum started complaining to him in the car again...
i couldn't bare to listen anymore, put on headphones, turned on extra loud.
Me & Bonnie sat at the back, and we thought it wasn't the time to talk.
So we SMS each other instead.
Arrived home. went to Bonnie's room. she told me i can stay in her room.
5 min after entering her room, i cried.
i kept asking myself a question, "Why did this happen?"... i never got an answer.
Right after crying, i got a bloodnose. Great timing.
bleeding wouldn't stop. i felt really sick.
took a little nap. then, Mum woke me up.
told me to go out for dinner, just the 4 of us. without Dad.
it was nearly 9. most restaurants closeby would be closed.
fast food. went to Nandoes, they said they're closing.
then went for KFC. not closed. Mum talked to me in the car about Dad.
the reason why Dad's first girlfriend left him was because of his stubbornness.
and his personality - getting angry very easily.
Then i thought of Mum working with Dad everyday, Dad yelling at Mum everyday.
How can Mum stand Dad? how can she work with him?
I realized, all this time, Mum wanted to cry. real badly.
Gave her a big hug. went home to eat KFC.
i told Dad, very sweetly, to eat dinner. only i can do that since i'm the youngest.
he did eat. ate at the TV. oh well, better than not eating.
i filled my empty stomach. went to bed 1 hr after dinner.
Few days had passed, and i could feel Dad trying to compensate Mum.
He was working hard, fixing my room up. trying to buy me office chairs, lights etc.
i felt happier, that he finally thought it through.
Bonnie noticed that too, Dad trying to apologize to Mum.
He isn't that stubborn after all. now i know one more thing about Dad.
He tries to apologize to Mum by working around the house.The last time he banged Bonnie's head really hard, he tried to apologize.
Guess how he did it? very strangely too.
He asked her, "Does it hurt?" and rubbed her head.If i never talked to him about Bonnie's head, he probably won't touch her, at all.
I still feel a bit sad, since Mum and Dad don't talk in the house anymore.But each day is getting better, i hope tomorrow will be full of surprises.Oh yeah, the thing that i was glad that didn't happen..... was a divorce.